The Terrible Writings of Quentin Montejo
Serial experiments on a fallen archangel who only wanted to regain just one wing back
The First Die is Cast
Just enrolled in that boxing class. As I went inside the place, I sort of felt elated about seeing a boxing ring. There were already people inside doing some sparring.

I dunno. There's something about fighting that gives me a certain high. I don't think it's really hurt and get hurt. More like, that blood rush when you land a hit or feel your every bone and muscle screech and ache with every push and movement.

A release so to speak.

Once I get to become good enough, I'll be taking up Muay Thai, or kick boxing in its more popular name. And well, at the end of my plans will be Jiujitsu. Brazilian Jiujitsu to be exact.

I'm gonna buy myself a pair of boxing gloves. Another piece of equipment that will litter my room. Which reminds me, I still am a go for that new place. I've been collecting flyers and stuff, but I what I really want is someone to discuss this with. Someone I know =.=

Oh yeah, they have hip hop dancing sessions for free on my package. Well, why not? >:D They have a pool too. *Weee*

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On an related note, I plan to buy a new laptop this week, or Sunday. My old one is ... well ... busted. It's virtually unusable. I'm trying to think of ways how I could salvage at least the hard drive.

Dang. That thing holds a lot of memories the past 5 years. It has my history in its 30GB hard disk to be exact.

What to do, oh what to do ...
It Rained Today
New things coming up:

1. Gonna take up boxing / kickboxing

2. Going to buy a new laptop

3. Begin the hunt for a new home

The first and second are trivial, but the third is not only a big decision, but is actually life-changing. I want my own place now more than ever. I want my artistic skills run free, and do my own interior decorating. No, you will and cannot expect a nerdy/geeky home full of wires and cables and techie stuff.

I actually have aesthetic tastes, if not bordering on aristocratic. Quite ironic that I act like a crude mofo in public.

I'd like a really good place here in Mandaluyong =.= GA Towers is nice but I haven't taken a gander at it yet. But if there's a better option, trading off on distance from Ortigas, I'll take it.

What I need is for someone to come with me when going on house trips. As I judge things better when there are other people with me.
Some More Mushy Bits
I had a little chat the other day, about how I could go mush for women friends. I know I don't really do it to all of my them, maybe just one or two who're dear to me the most. It's never for anything romantic or even in a sisterly attitude, and sometimes people mistake my behaviour for such. Sounds kinda unfair to other women friends who feel the same way to me >:D Make no mistake, I sometimes hate it, so I pepper it up with some carino brutal to balance things up >:D

There was one friend I had, whose birthday was coming. And since I couldn't think of any birthday gift (and well most birthday gifts tend to become paper weights) I decided, hey, if it's gonna be a paper weight, it better be something I made with my own hands.

So I went up to Robs Galleria alone, hunting for just the thing. And there was this paint-a-figurine stalls where you could buy a statuette and color it up the way you like. So I got that, and with all the artistic talents I could muster, I've painted it myself. Underneath it, I wrote a short poetry or dedication or something (can't remember).

Gave it to her in a party while she was painting my fingernails with black nail polish (don't ask, I do a lot little crazy things). She took it with a gleam in her eyes while I gave her a "I-really-don't-give-a-damn" look. The thing wasn't even gift wrapped so I could retain the dense, insensitive, male persona =.=

And well, there was another where I had a fight with (partially my fault actually hehehe). We were exchanging heated text messages (lol, that sounded funny aye?) about who's not being cooperative to who, because I was supposed to return something important to a group of friends and I feel lazy doing so.

I kinda felt bad afterwards, so what I did was, I brought the supposed thing to her house in a bag. But sorrounding it was all of her favorite candies. It looks like a peace offering, but I just really wanted to give it to her even if we haven't fought at all.

Alright, time to indulge in nonsensical online gaming ...
All Day Long, Song After Song, It Makes You Feel Alright ...
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This is the radio on my roommate's bed. It's been so long since I've felt that light rock music greeting you when you wake up. Does wonders to make a cheerful day. The soft, golden glow came from the window, diffused by the curtains. Got the caption from Lei's avatar somewhere, and it kinda sticked to my mind. Felt like I hafta put it here.


I've been listening to 'Closer' by Better than Ezra, and well, it gave me good vibes. A sort of calm that says, everything's good. Things are fine. I don't have to let the anxieties of my life get in the way.

I wanna go out. Take pictures and post them here with subtitles or captions. The same thing I did with my phone.

I know my digicam only had two out of town trips. But I think I've made it worth its weight in pictures. I love taking pictures of happy faces aglow in the sunset. And perhaps that of a face I have a finite affection for (wee).

It feels like I'm Leonardo da Vinci trying to paint a digital Mona Lisa. Ahh, but what a tragic life he lived :)
From the Woman I Named My Tripod After
anche!!! musta ka na? ekaw bay nalolongkot, alang magawa? hehehe.. wala na ko balita sayo, di ko lam kung nasang sulok ka na ba ng mundo. what have you been busy with lately? kasi naman di nagki-keep in touch :( mayaman ka na siguro kaya suplado ka na sa personal ano? hmpft!

san ka na ba nagwu-work? summer na dyan sa atin no? haay, kakamiss naman ang pinas!!! lalo na ang halo-halo at sisig.. yum!

hey, we've moved to minnesota na. natapos ang contract ni hubby sa arkansas so kahit ako pwede pa mag-stay doon, being the good wife that i am (or should be, hehe), eh i had to give my contract up and follow him here. 3rd week ko palang, ang lamig dito!!! i've been hit with arkansas-homesickness pero life has to go on, ika nga. so here i am, trying to find my silver lining in a new place covered with snow.

aside from this and some other stuffs that i won't tell anymore kasi papagalitan mo lang ako >:D .. eh wala na akong kwento. alang kwenta no? :) nagparamdam lang po para naman alam mong buhay pa ako, at may kaibigan kang naalala ka kahit ika'y nakalimot na *luha*

o sige tama na emote kasi oras na ng trabaho, basa ka pa nang basa ng email dyan. miss you!!! :)

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~ Two Boats and the Boracay Sunset ~
I missed you too. I missed being beside you and how I turn your day miserable :D But just as those two boats have to part to go to separate seas, we have to plant our own good memories in separate places. I've always wanted to see the day I could see you again. Maybe someday!
Featured Article: Closing Cycles by Paulo Coelho
Nadja gave me this one. Thanks.

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One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.

Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished. Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden?

You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that.

But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot for ever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back.

Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away. That is why it is so important (however painful it maybe!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.

Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the ideal moment. Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person. Nothing is irreplaceable. A habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.

Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

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Sometimes the defenses we make for ourselves are the same things that hold us down. Let go, let live. Things don't always come back. Go forward. The sun that sets today will always be the one that rises tomorrow. Gotta always remember that. Sure, in the future I'll be disappointed again, and that's possible. But that's just fine, and it doesn't mean it'll stop there.
Me and the Lizard Queen
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We were eternal enemies of destiny and fate


We're neighbors but I barely visit her. To think she's the only remaining member of a shattered circle of friends from a long, long time ago. I should treat her better -_-

She lives a semi-charmed kind of life. A vocalist in a rockband, a writer, a romanticist, a lomo-lover, she's got this ongoing zest with squeezing everything out of life. While I ... I used to say that to myself as well. But deep down, I know I feel that I can't do nearly enough.

We've talked about how life has been treating us in general, and the usual rants. Friends we've lost along the way ... new friends gained.

We're both people who are honest with what we feel. And how the world, somehow couldn't take it. I guess that's our tragedy.

Took this picture at her place, then kissed her goodbye. I have to go back to the troubles my world brings.

I like to say I'm not lost. But I am free not to think about it =_=
Sleepless in Bora
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Actually, I slept soundly everytime.

Will post the rest of the pictures as soon as they're done.
Valentines and Some Sand
I was supposed to bring my camera today (and wishfully, night sights) and take pictures of couples snuggling this Valentines as feature pics for this blog of mine. But again, I woke up late, hurried to office, and left my camera at home.

Dang, another golden opportunity missed.

Anyway, will be going to a rather deathly commercialized paradise this Friday. Honestly, I'm not prepared ~_~ work is on a steady stream, and leaving off a weekday can have major consequences.

But!

We work to live, not live to work. So I'm going to enjoy this adventure. I've promised that I'll be making some sort of music video of the trip. Two things: I don't have my laptop back yet to edit the strips, and second, I haven't written down the script sequences.

Not sure what get up my actors and actresses will be bringing, but I'm sure it'll be nothing boring :D

Anyway, here's the plan. I'll be using Love Generation by Bob Sinclair for one vid (all around), and Kissing by Bliss on the other. Ofcourse Kissing will have a couple as the main focus *wink* *wink*

Other than that, I already have more than a couple of ideas for photo poses.

It's all plan, I know, and well, things or whatever can happen along the way in the most unexpected of ways. Oh yeah, I'm gonna go jetskiing, and see if I'll be brave enough to bring a cam up there while parasailing.

Coolness. This is gonna be great.

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Chakras!
Well, well, well, I'm as busy as hell. Barely even time to blog. I am now not because I have no time, but I just hit a brick wall trying to resolve something.

Now anyway, I was watching DVD of Avatar: The Last Air Bender (and might I say, so far it's the only non-anime American toon that actually doesn't suck), and I came across a description of the different chakras.

I'm not really into Hindu mysticism, but the concepts bring out some very interesting points about the human psyche. I can't possibly take them as truth however, let's just say it hits close to home. It does put some light at the limitations we put ourselves, metaphysical, corporeal, or whatever.

Here they are.

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a. The first chakra is the Earth Chakra, located at the base of the spine. It deals with Survival, and is blocked by Fear.

Me: Just what is do I fear the most? I am not sure myself. I am afraid of heights, but you can see me rappeling, scaling walls, heck, I'd even go sky diving given the chance. You might notice that my hand is clasped tight in each occasion though. It's sort of an instinct when such things happen. Yoinks.

b. The second chakra is the Water Chakra, which deals with Pleasure, and is blocked by Guilt.

Me: Ho ho ho. Guilt. What do I blame myself for. Fortunately, I forget a lot of things that it doesn't really bother me. Oh I used to be guilty of something. But I've dealt with it. Moving along.

c. The third chakra is the Fire Chakra, which is located in the stomach, it deals with willpower, while it is blocked by Shame.

Me: Failures and mistakes are a part of life. And I've come across a mile of them. I'm a graduate of this chakra, relatively.

d. The fourth chakra is the Air Chakra, located in the heart, this chakra deals with Love, and is blocked by Grief.

Me: I guess Anakin Skywalker had this coming. Nasty, nasty chakra blockage. I do too, actually.

e. The fifth Chakra is the Sound Chakra, and is located in the throat, it deals with Truth, and is blocked by the Lies people tell themselves.

Me: I think boob infomercials are tools of the DEVIL. Okay, just kidding (not). I dunno, I did have this phase in my life where I just couldn't deal with reality (cue in angry, angsty boy band music).

f. The sixth chakra is the Light Chakra, located in the center of the forehead, which is responsible for Insight, and is blocked by Illusions.

Me: If illusions are synonymous to delusions, then bite me. But anyway, if you understand what the phrase, "Everything is the individual, the individual is everything", then this is basically it. Not that I can say more about it.

g. The seventh chakra is theThought Chakra, located located at the crown of the head, deals with Cosmic Energy, and is blocked by Earthly Attachment.

Me: Perhaps the most insightful of all the chakras. We are so attached to the things we love in this world that it prevents us to move on.

But seriously, I do have something that will keep me to this world *furrows eyebrows* letting go is hard to do. So I grab a beer and merry the night away.
Some Notes
Photobucket - Video and Image HostingGuys, have you noticed that it's really, really chilly here in Manila?

And second, it's summer, yet I wanna grow my hair long simply because everybody hates it :)
Life is Like A Boat
Photobucket - Video and Image HostingNobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Photobucket - Video and Image Hostinghito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

- Life is Like a Boat, sung by Rie Fu, ending song Bleach

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I've always loved anime OSTs. The reason? When translated, they almost all sound like poetry, the words are simple but lyrical. Kinda like a haiku in steroids ^_^

And now for some tidbitty thoughts:
- saw our cat NT in REM. Wonder what she's dreaming. It's funny when they twitch while dreaming, hahaz
- brought my digicam to Megamall. Was supposed to take pictures of paintings. Instead, I ended up spending my time in a magazine shop. Bought a TIME magazine with a cover, "The War With No End: An exlusive look at what drives the NPA -- and at why the Philippine government may never defeat it."
- Woke up happy for some reason.
- Kerberos is on a hiatus. Been watching Bleach. I'm in episode 40 I think. Not really interested with the Bount story arc, because it's not in the manga.
- I just signed up for a new MMORPG, Flyff. I did it because RAN Online was in maintenance last night. I just had to have my fix.

Anyway, til next post ^_^
   

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