Even though lots of good things are happening to me, there's one thing that hasn't changed.

I am still in a state of disrepair.

It sounds like a bunch gibberish I know. Or maybe I'm not busy enough. Or I am that introspective that I notice things like this even though I am busy.

I want to sleep. For a long time. Not that I am tired.

It's just I've done so much.

And for the first time in long while ... I wish I was just rich and whiled my time away.

Saying that feels illegal as I've always believed working hard for what you want. It's just that I'm still working hard even though I don't want much of anything.

Am I crazy?