I've been doing some mental exercises (okay, first off that sounded weird).

And I've realized I've been relying on a bad habit. You know my imagination? It's pretty active, but one thing that I also use it for is a narcotic. I imagine things that make me feel good.

Not that it's bad in itself.

It's just that it's not really healthy. I stay in this dreamland and waste time. Hence, my hermit and procrastinating nature.

I treat it like a television set. If my mind is idle, I turn it on subconsciously. And I think I've been doing that since I was a kid. So I guess stopping this now would have withdrawal symptoms.

But let's see. Experiments ongoing.