The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the moldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.

Truth be told, I've never completely associated my pen name, Quentin Montejo, with myself.

Indeed, I made him up as a representation of what the complete me to be: a passionate artist, a wisened philosopher, and an enthusiastic scientist. It is sort of like when a kid is trying to imagine himself as a super powered comic book hero, I wanted the same thing myself, minus the cape. Yet, as how things went, I have only become a half-baked artist, a wannabe thinker, and a moody scientist at most. It's as much as how a kid can come up with a cape that has the 'S' drawn instead of sewn, and is written backwards to boot.

My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the moldering Past,
But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast
And the days are dark and dreary.

I guess that makes a part of me idealistic.

Yet in all that bruhaha, I still am very much just like the next Joe. I get angry when pissed, I get down when things are gloomy. I would exude a bright face even if inside, I'm in complete chaos with myself. I have all the answers to life, so long as I didn't have all the problems to begin with. Sometimes I think too much about something trivial, and sometimes I'm apathetic on matters that need attention.

Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.

"Into each life, some rain must fall" ... this is actually a poem by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, which I remembered way, way back (15 years? I dunno why it's still in my head). It really has no relation to the content of this post ^_^ I just wanted that 'rain' line in here. It's just nice that there are words arranged out there that acknowledges and reminds us that, well, life really has nothing going against any of us.

We're simply perspective-based creatures. A tragedy to one, could simply be a light in a tunnel to another.

~~~

Lately, I've noticed that I've been listening to too much pansy music. Need to rev it up with more upbeat songs. So, dump stuff into your multiply accounts people. I'll be lovin ya, oh yeah.

~~~

Btw, I'll just make a comment on the new MMORPG e-Games has release called Supreme Destiny, and all I can say is -- it sucks, big time. It just couldn't give me excitement, heck, Diablo 2 shines over it despite being more than 4 years old.

Why the hell are they making such crap and release it to the populace? What were they thinking?


If I have an AM radio ... could I use it at night?