For some unexpected event, I was able to find a common friend of mine and my ex, who was also sort of a college buddy. And well, he texted me today about her number because I still have it but haven't used it for more than a year or so. He said she's still her mataray self (one of the things that I liked about her), and she's doing fine. I have this sort of self-imposed block not to personally greet her myself even though we've patched things up between us. It's a kind of safety wall so I don't have to contest with the unpredictability of situations like this.

Anyway, it's a bit of a strange feeling that this happened. I need to ponder about something.